A Positive Attitude Goes A Long Way

It's funny, since I have decided that I am going to really learn from my mistakes and not dwell on the fact that I've made them, I feel incredibly free.  I have realized that all of these "mess ups" have redefined me.  I am stronger than I thought I was.  I am happier than I thought I was.  I am wiser than I thought I was.  If we hadn't gone through all of this drama I don't know when, if ever, I would have learned those things.

I know that my attitude has much less to do with what is going on around me than what I decide it's going to be.  I made up my mind that I would not be pulled into my husband's frantic, negative moods and I have not.  I made up my mind that I'm going to come up with an idea of what I wanted MY life to look like and move forward with it and I have.  I am still 100% committed to making my marriage work but if it doesn't, that's ok.  I'm not bogged down by the drama of my day to day living any more.  I realize that if my life changes it is not the end of the world but rather the beginning of a new exciting one.

For so long now I have forgotten the power of our minds.  If you wake up and expect to have a miserable day, I guarantee you will.  On the contrary, if you decide your day is going to be great, it will.  No matter what is thrown your way, you are going to look at it with a positive attitude and therefore jump over the hurdle rather than stay stuck behind it all day.  WE decide what our lives are going to look like and then paint the picture.

Life is hard.  Life has no guarantees.  Marriage, raising a family, being single, unemployment, managing a fortune, they all come with challenges.  Do you give up?  Do you curl into the fetal position and whine until the universe solves your issues?  Or do you see the problem for what it is, develop a plan of action and attack it?

I have made up my mind that from now on I will take the latter approach.  I have spent years waiting.  Waiting for my problems to solve themselves.  Waiting for happiness to deliver itself to my front door on gilded wings.  Waiting for the man I married to reemerge.  Waiting to become the carefree girl he married.  My wait is over.  I will have exactly what I want from life and things I can't begin to dream of.  How long will you wait for the life you want?